How Anger almost killed me!

 Do you know that anger kills more people in the world than we could ever notice? Do you know that anger causes a lot of under developed babies and can potentially cause disability in babies? Do you know that a breastfeeding mother can potentially kill her baby with stressed out milk? How do I know that? I experienced it all. I was angry, I still am angry, but it doesn't matter anymore because it is killing me to be angry. So I would rather give it all to God and let him fight on my behalf instead of holding on grudges

I bought a journal to just document it. There was too much going on in my brain even my Aunty Shekupe could not really provide the consolation I needed. I was spiralling down a sloppy road and there was nothing I could do. The outbreak that happened in the country made it worse because I was stuck with a Grandma that abuses me mentally. Imagine my daughter can't feel her Father's love because of her. 

Am not supposed to hate, but what happened when there is so much rage inside me that the very call from her sets my mood apart? I want to just be free from all this. There is just so much hate.